show me the free money
Just deposited my first unemployment check which was followed by a frenzy of job aquiring activity. It’s like the guilt of a mother I swear. “Here is your free money you mooching son-of-a-bitch, shouldn’t you be doing something about the fact you need this.” Then again I have always had hardcore guilt about asking for financial help from anyone. Sometimes I wish I could just be one of those people who guilt their parents into taking care of everything they need money-wise. But I can’t bring myself to do it (well OK so I do maybe sorta kinda use it with my Dad…ok…I admit it…but not as bad as my brother does so THERE).
Anyway in all of this I have started revisiting the idea of freelancing full-time. I’m not so stoked about having to constantly look for jobs but I am getting quite used to not having to deal face to face with all the fucktards of the world. I mean sure I’ll have to work harder with less security possibly for less money for a while…but in the end I have more control over when and how much I work with in reason. No more “how the fuck am I going to take off time for my dream vacation cross country drives?” and that would be nice. But no insurance sounds like a bad idea.
I’m not used to having this much choice…it’s scary.
